Friday, June 28, 2013

TTC Friday: Tick, Tick, BOOM

Well. Look at that.

It's hard to say what brought on this "normal" cycle. Could have been my body resetting itself after the chemical pregnancy. Could have been reduced stress levels/better management of stress thanks to Circle + Bloom. Could have been better eating habits (no skipping lunch this time), drinking more water each day, and taking my vitamins again. Could have been because it was Tuesday. Who knows. Whatever it was, I'm grateful for it because it's given me some hope and a real sense of a "fresh" start.

I got the call yesterday for my specialist appointment. DH and I both have to go in for the initial session, which will be on August 21st. I'm glad it's later because it'll give us some more time to mentally/emotionally prepare for it, and get in at least one more cycle on our own if this one is not it. My fingers are staying crossed that we won't need to keep that appointment.

Not too long ago, I came across this article about Khloe Kardashian where she discusses the speculation about her infertility. I feel for her (who'd have thought I'd ever say that about a Kardashian?!) because that is nobody's business and she shouldn't have to explain herself. Khloe's argument was that she's not dealing with infertility, her hormones are just off. My reaction when I read that was, "the denial is strong with this one." When you're being medicated and having monitoring ultrasounds...yeah, you're dealing with infertility.

The doctor I've been referred to specializes in REI - reproductive endocrinology and infertility. The receptionist at my doctor's office kept making reference to going to the "fertility clinic" every time I spoke to her on the phone. Each time I'd hear the terms "infertility" and "fertility clinic" I'd find myself feeling defensive and wanting to say, "wait! I'm not dealing with infertility here, I'm not going to the clinic for all that. I probably just have hormone issues." So, it seems Ms. Kardashian is not the only one with a touch of denial. I have been feeling better about this whole thing compared to last week (thank you for the supportive comments, by the way!) but these labels are something I will need to get my head around and come to terms with.

(In case you're wondering, the title of this post comes from the fact that my DH keeps calling Circle + Bloom "Circle and BOOM" so when I actually ovulated, that's what came to mind. Well, that and "boom goes the dynamite" but I think I'll save that one for a BFP!)


  1. Woohoo for the normal cycle! Fingers crossed you either a) get a BFP this cycle, or b) continue to have more regular cycles (obviously hoping for option "a" here!).

  2. All right!! So happy to see those crosshairs :-) You guys had great timing too - FX for you!
    I hear you with the touch of denial with the "infertility" label. I still struggle with that too and put myself in the "hormone regulation" category. Never thought I'd identify with Khloe K...

  3. yay for a normal cycle!! great timing too!

  4. Thanks, ladies! Still trying to stay hopeful and resist the urge to test early.

    Alyssa - I hope this regular business is going to continue, too!

  5. Hey SP. Just a note to say I was thinking about you and checking to see if there was a Friday update. Since there was no update after those lovely CHs I'm thinking there was no good news from that one :-( Hope all is well.

    1. Thanks for thinking of me! No good news from that cycle, other than it's normal length. The current seems to be on track so far, too. We'll see!

      I've been MIA this month because I started taking a course for work the week after school ended and it's been unexpectedly intense. It ends on the 31st so I'll be updating sometime within the next week. Looking forward to a proper vacation :)

      Hope all is well with you, too! I can't wait to get caught up!